I’m here
From the other side
Next to you as you sleep, Love
Nexttoyou
And yet
We’re separated by one word
It lives in you, how is that right?
The word “live” seems wrong
Diseases don’t live
They take
And yet, our lives can never truly be touched, can they?
We have that in common, praise God!
We are death survivors, you and I
This mortal work cannot touch us
Jesus bore your sickness, Love
He became a curse for you
But
That doesn’t mean
This doesn’t still feel like a curse or–
You can’t
Still
Die
And there’s that word again
It sits between us like so much hard, cold impenetrable glass
Or maybe plastic
It feels manmade, fake in a way
Like the Agent Orange that fathered it
Faulty DNA birthed from faulty natures
Fruit from a Fall
Just as much theirs as ours
Perhaps you accept that justice more than I
I remember once (and many times thereafter)
You said you must accept the evil allowed by God just as you accept the good
From the Bible–Job, in fact–how could I argue?
And yet I cry out against it
From the other side
God, please forgive me for that
Jesus knows sometimes it just hits me like this
As I lie here, inches yet literally worlds away from you, Love
And yet–
Nothing can separate us forever
Though I lie here writing to you
From the other side
I am yours
And you are mine
Whether on this side
Or the other
Mandy, you put into words my thoughts/feelings/pain/hurt/why as I went through the same kind of darkness you are in when my husband fought cancer. Praise Jesus he no longer suffers… I’m alone, waiting for that reunion. But determined to not let the now darkness take over me.
Lana Kent — (I’m your dad’s cousin, by the way – found your blog since I’m his friend and he is a proud father)
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Oh, Lana, my heart goes out to you about your husband and the soul crushing loss you have suffered… Such detestation, but your faith and hope encourages me so much! Thank you for your beautiful comment. And what a sweet and unusual surprise to meet a family member through something like this. 🙂
One day you and your beloved will be united again, and what joy it will be! As will mine with my beloved, should our story together on this earth end that way. Whatever the Lord wants. I have learned His way is always better. Blessings. 💙
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Thank you so much for the award! You are amazing and such a sweet, encouraging friend on here… ❤
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